In the wee hours of the morning, I find myself dreading the workday. Most days, I wish I could just stay in bed and sleep. I hit the snooze button too many times for my own good.
But this morning I wished for something else.
I wished for a life that makes me want to leap out of bed and chase after it. Like a mad woman. Like a dangerous girl.
And although I haven’t been able to embody a whole lot of the things I have learned in this life, I do know this: If you want it, you have to go after it. No fairy godmother is going to come around with pixie dust that will let me grow money on a tree in the backyard or grant me an infinity of wishes.
I can hedge my bets and pursue a new job, or find a way to telework, or move to a new house, or start taking a new class, or any number of things that change my current situation. But I know that each one of those things will result in the same state of mind in less time than I’d like to admit to myself. I can use these skills–this ability to write–in a multitude of ways that will afford me a reliable paycheck. Reliable paychecks are good…they are the stuff of “making a living” and paying the bills and putting food on the table. Part of me is ashamed to find fault with my fairly blessed life.
But another part of me is not ashamed. I am not ashamed to dream. I am not ashamed to want more, to want better, to want passion, to want success doing something I love. I will hold on to this wish–this dream for a more authentic life–and I will hold on to this job in the meantime, but I promise myself to keep going after the dream.
It’s too easy to give up, anyway. This life means too much to just sit back and let it slide by.
Don’t let your life slide by, people. It’s too short and comes with no guarantees, but it does come with hope. Gather up your wherewithal and go after what you really want.
Let’s start with something simple.
Like…the Law of Attraction. That’s easy, right? You know…The Secret? If you aren’t familiar with the concept, it is the idea that you attract to your life whatever you think about. That you get what you give. A kind of daily karma, if you will, as determined by your hopes and fears.
The main challenge is to stay constant in your dreams and believe that they can come true.
It sounds crazy, right?
Well, here is my dream: I want to be a writer. A writer of novels, non-fiction, investigative articles, screenplays, poetry, interviews, and any other kind of writing I feel like doing. I also want to help other people be writers. And I want to do this every day. I recently had a wake-up call from a friend of mine. Life is too short to spend it doing anything other than pursuing your own vocation. Mine is writing.
Hence: This website.
I know it is Day One, but it’s never too early to start.
For my first exercise, and yours, if you like, write down a list of all the things you want to accomplish when you start living the life of your dreams. Just let the dreams fly. And if you have pictures of where you want to live, and where you want to travel to with the proceeds of your first big success, and what you’ll do for fun when you aren’t writing…cut ’em out and paste ’em down on your list. And when you are done, put that list somewhere you will see it everyday.
And then. Start writing.
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